27

Well in about a month I will be turning 27. I never felt as old as I do now,but maybe that isn't such a bad thing. It's so weird when I look in the mirror I don't see 27, but when I think about my life thus far I definitely feel it. I have been with Jeff for 10 years now, married almost 7. We past that honeymoon stage long ago,but lately it feels really good to know someone,like I know him. There's a strange comfort in having him know me so deeply. For so long I wished we could go back to how we were when we were first married. Only know with this impending birthday that I cherish the memories but wouldn't give up this sense of complete honesty and total devotion. In the beginning you are still getting to know each other, still putting on a front, but as time goes on you learn and experience what it takes to make your marriage work, and how good it feels to sort of consider your marriage a success so far; and I do.We have 2 children, and I never knew I could feel as much love for them as I do.I am sincerely thankful I waited to have my babies.There is no way I could've been as good of a mother to them when I was younger, as I can be to them now. Until recently I really loathed the thought of being 27, but know I find myself embracing it more. I really appreciate the wisdom I've gained, I wouldn't be 21 again if you paid me, (well maybe if it was a substantial amount,lol.) I can only hope that at 54 I still relish the thought of getting older, and wiser. I'm sure I will be bestfriends with botox, but lifes a give- n- take I guess.